"Lust=sadness" 6-15-06

If you think love can grow from looks, your sadly mistaken
But when you see that gorgeous person on the street that

doesn't stop your heart from achin
Jealousy and envy set in, you even feel taunted
Now in the haze of infatuation they're all you ever wanted
Or maybe its just you want what you can't have...
What's out of reach, so close but can't grab
Whatever it is, it still triggers your emotion
Feels like someone slipped you a pill in your love potion
Now you'll go on the rest of the day with that one person in

your head..
Tomorrow will pass by and you'll think of someone else instead
And you'll hurt just as much and want them just as bad
But if you think you can love them on looks alone...
That's why your alone and sad...
Izzy...

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"Choke heard round the world" 5-13-06

Its too late now, but took forever to arrive
Now its over, ending the life of something never alive
Am I sorry? A little yes, a little no...
Not for what I did and NEVER for stealing the show
I must come to terms with what will be
Bury my dreams and scavenge for the soul I sold for free
Hopefully I'll learn how to forgive and forget
Until then I'll live with hate, but NEVER regret...
Izzy...

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"What's your story?" 4-16-06

To write the story of your life,
gotta keep up with everyday that goes by
take notice when the sun shines
embrace it when the clouds cry
feel it when the wind blows
take pride in knowing what no one else knows
Its hard to be yourself, but who else can you be?
at the end of the day only you can set yourself free
so sit back, relax, and take a deep breath
be thankful for it, for you never know how many you have left
so live with me as everyday goes by,
and thank you for being in this chapter in the story of my life...
Izzy...

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"Damage Plan"

I'm over it now and feel so fuckn ugly
This war in my head continues to bug me

She didn't call, fuck it nobody did
How do you go from the heart break
to the heart broken kid?

I fall too easily to the bottom floor
Show me a little love and I'd die for a little more
A little more is all I need,
An addict hooked now feed my greed!

FUCK IT SCREW IT, I'm on my own
The poster child for bein alone
So thank you, fuck you all in one
Story of my life "your not the one"
I'm over it now and feel so fuckn lonely
This war in my life continues to own me...*

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"Her fault" 11-08-05

When food loses its taste, its your fault
when summer loses its heat, its your fault
and i'm stuck in suspension, and your not
how we locked eyes on stage, I havent forgot
how you stole each breath from my lungs
how you sung each one of your songs
and now in the haze of infatuation your what Ive been waiting for my whole life
and I knew it without looking twice
and now when these memories hold me at bay, its your fault
I could never forget the girl on stage...she's so hot*

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"The World We Created" 11-08-05

For 3 days the world stopped
For 3 days my heart dropped
A weekend with a foreign stranger,
turned into something I'll always remember
If only you could have stayed just 1 more day
now you'll haunt me as the 1 that got away
Maybe I'll see you again, maybe I wont
2 Rockstars in love, now separated and alone
I understood you, just like you did me
3 days in time, 2 hearts were set free
So forgive me if I say this 1 thing...
You'll always mean so much more than a holiday fling
Time will tell if we'll cross paths again
either way fate led me to a beautiful friend*

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"Morgan Dreams" 11-08-05

Too much for my head at 7am
not enough for my heart 24-7
my dreams are haunted by characters of my past...why?
somehow my mind is haunted by characters of my future...why?
Its not clear and too blurry to make sense at 7am
rest I need more than granted
I guess that's the price for getting all I ever wanted*

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"Kids" 10-09-05

At what age does innocence turn to ignorance?
what age are we allowed to stop throwing fits?
when does privilege turn to punishment?
now all your insults turn to compliments
unfortunately all my do�s turn to did�s,
at what age do we stop being kids?

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"Chasco Aftermath" 10-09-05

I thought I knew everything about nothing,
but I know nothing about everything
there's ups and downs
smiles and frowns
loves and losses
6�s and crosses
I thought I was on a path seeing straight ahead
but I cant see past my eyes and I'm lost instead
darks and lights
strengths and frights
win or lose
pick and choose
I want to choose the path to freedom
I want to gain knowledge and wisdom.
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"uncensord thoughts" 10-09-05

Lets fuckn rock!
Scream fuckn loud!
forget how cool you are
fuck your inhibitions
and fuck your thoughts
who gives a shit?! LETS FUCKN ROCK!
It doesn't just hit your ears
It doesn't just fill your tears
It doesn't just numb your fears
Anyone who knows, is anyone who hears,
so fuckn rock!
I SAID FUCKN ROCK!!
Head to Toe, Heart and Soul
BORN TO ROCK...that's all I know
Fuck the drama, fuck the hate,
FUCKN ROCK...you know its great...
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"This Moment" 10-09-05

For a day, I have someone to sing about
For a few hours, I have someone to think about
For a few minutes, I have someone to infatuate over
For a few seconds my heart is tricked into falling in love
For a moment, I have someone to write about
For now...your my moment.
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"Skin Deep" -12-26-03

What you see is not what you get
My description is simply a part of it,
a visible chapter is read when you look,
There's so much more to read if you open the book.
It may not be a best seller that fly's off the shelf,
all that can be offered is true self.
Judging any book by it's cover is something you chose
It's that lack of venture where YOU lose
You'll never know my name, my voice, or where I sleep,
All you know about me is skin deep...*

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"Lost"

I'll find me, you find yourself too
Then I'll find you and you'll find me too
So infatuated, attracted, and distracted
I see myself in your eyes, you'll feel yourself in everything I do
Just show me the path...cause I can't fully find myself until I find you...*

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"Man or boy?" 10-15-02

A man looks in2 the mirror,
what does he see?
The man before him, or the boy he used 2 be?
Wondering how the boy developed in2 a man so fast,
what happened 2 time?
When did "The Future" become "The PAST"??
Thinking of the life he's led
scared 2 death of what lies ahead.
2 the man he hasn't changed a day in his life,
but now he's old enough 2 take a wife
How did he get where he is now?
When did wishing turn 2 how?
This is no man, only a boy could be so torn,
so hurt, so emotionally worn..
PICK yourself up man! YOU CAN!
Look in2 the mirror, what does he see?
He sees the man, and the boy...
He sees....me...*
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"Everything" 4-9-03

Every step I was there

Every breath is what we shared

Every drip is what we've bled

Every scream blew up our head

Every pic is what we signed

Every tear is what we've cried

Every fight is what we had

Every time one is mad

Every show we shared the screen

Every guy would get a scream

Every show we'd say a prayer

Every show...I'd say a prayer

Every disappointment we faced

Every good time we embraced

Every doubt is what we had

Every interview with Chad

Every month, every year

Every step...I was there...*

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"Words to LIVE by" 6-2-04

WELCOME what U HATE
Welcome a change
LIVE while U can in the unknowing strange
shut out the light and let yourself BE
no1 needs light to see
jus be the ENERGY
most important, suit yourself cause that's clean livin
LIFE'S A CELEBRATION so fly with the wings your givin...*

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"Questions" 5-1-03

I don't want this,
I do want this,
I do need this
I say screw this!
When will it happen?
Will it happen?
How many times will I keep askin?
Thought I had it...
Swore I did...
What did I know, I was jus a kid...*
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non-titled

These thoughts go beyond sight
we're all blind, closed minds see no light
only vision is what two holes show
so much more to "reality" than what we know
too many see life as all there is
see the world for what it really is
my body keeps me "here", my spirit sees beyond "here"
beyond my eyes that only show fear
where always holding on, afraid to let go
what happens when you do? when you do, you'll know
we all "are" and exist, but more than we comprehend
cant think you "are", know it, don't pretend
body and mind be humbled and in awe of what's around us.
think and appreciate
knowledge is a gift
but ignorance to it all is bliss...*
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"Ode to self"

i will live on
i will be strong
i will be set free
i will finally be me
i will carry on the real
i will embrace what i feel
i will be true to myself
i will answer to no one else
i will be extreme
i will be the team
i will never give up
i will never shut up
i will do what i want
i will never stop
i will stay true to myself
i will keep this ode to self...*
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